i'm glad..

.. gud then, penting kn la diri sndiri.. selfish and etc.. i knew dis will happen.. n i'm so glad dat i'm not put a high hope on you coz almost 10 times i met a perfect girl like you but then the end it's mess up.. i wanted to tell you sumthing, i'm starting to love you but then the time should i told you then the time it's show your true colour.. i know, i felt your hatred, i felt your anger, but please dun you have any belas kasihan or tolak ansur..???? you are changed, totally changed love.. i dunno what to do n base on my experience i dun give a money for a shit, aku da letih nk tolak ansur dahh.. cukup baek dah aku ni.. x pe la, aku bkn nk kutuk kau, i didn't meant to hurt or diss you in a public or what but dis is the way i express my feels.. yes i do love you, i do.. but... it's ok then, take care n gudbye.. i won't disturb you and please go away so dat i will be more easier to delete, discard, and throw u in a rubbish.. u should understand me girl.. i love you..

one day, maybe..

i miss you a lot, feels like wanna text and call you when i'm alone.. yes i do have close friend, very close female friend but not all the time she with me.. sometimes i remember, remember when we at the same time look at each other, stare at the eyes, and then smile.. you kiss me, then i kiss you plus i said 'i love you' and then you hug me suddenly.. i remember that time love, i do.. but today, i don't even see your footstep.. maybe you go somewhere else, somewhere else that i don't know.. i wonder what are you doing now, how are you, and do you miss me? take care, thanks for everything, thanks for the pure love instinct that i've feel u gave me once upon a time.. all left just a memories.. goodbye..

at last you admit..

this is one of my victory in my life, my instinct was right and i'm not accussing 'her'.. damnn i feel so happy n satiesfied with my prediction.. last morning i text her ask about that.. she admit and she appologise for it.. puas hati aku, mampos lah kau dgn perangai bodo kau tu.. lps ni ko x berubah jgk aku x tau la nk ckp ape da.. bodoh sngt kau ni.. mature lah konon..? f**k off wehh, jgn nk kencing org sngt la.. see what's hurt me the most you won't admit you wrong b***h do ur song, keep telling u was a gurl, and how dare u try take what you didn't help me to get, u selfish b***h i hope u burn die in hell for this shit.. PUAS HATI AKU..

Lets pretend like it's from the start
Like I'm eating lunchoff of styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next photographer comin out the A
Hoping for a record deal to ignore my pain
Now lets pretend likeI'm on the stage
And when my shots heard everybody like it
Okay
And everybody know my name and everywhere I go people always compliment
Oh yeah and I justuploaded my new picture on the first week more than Five-Hundred Thousand like
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall and then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they called me the greatest selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and no one ever hated
Lets try to use imagination

and then i was fall from the top

somebody took it from me

where should i put my name?

shit it's just a simple thing i can't do it

how shame i am to all..

i hope..

this is more than 10 times, and happen so many times.. but i hope, this time will not like before.. i honest to be friend with you, and i'm not expect any and a high hope.. this time i will not make a same mistake like before.. yes i admit, u are diff than others.. thanks for accompany me so far i'm happy to be friend with you as long you 'okay' with me.. Thank You :')

another try..

i knew this one girl when i was duduk sorg2 at student centre.. my eye keep on looking at her, stare for a while she's sooo beautiful, her hair perfectly fall down without her trying.. this is another try for me, yes another try after what 'she' did to me.. i'm not give a full hope, i dun have any confidence yet coz i did learn my past mistake.. i really hope this time will happen..

'her eyes make the stars look like they're not shining,

her hair falls perfectly without her trying
she's so beautiful and I tell her every day
I know when I compliment her she wont believe me

its so sad to think she don't see what I see
but every time she asks me do I look okay

I say when I see your face there's not a thing that I would change

cause you're amazing just the way you are
and when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile
cause girl you're amazing
just the way you are

Car license! Pleaseeee! / last paper sucks!

last morning i had an accident with my sister, kesian kami jatuh tegolek jgk la kat tgh jln tu puncanya tayar depan pancit tiba2? last day when i woke up in the morning my phones ringging 'Aidil Hafeez calling' i pressed green button 'kau kat mana? dtg la kolej study last minit' then i go out to the window and i saw out there, it's raining.. damn how can i pick up my sister then answer my last paper? i'm 20 now, not 15.. i'm adult now, not teenage.. car lisence is important for certain case please understand all this.. haihhh.. kempunan akuu nk drive kereta ke kolej mcm budak2 laen..

today i'm taking my last paper, i'm totally ready to answer all of it coz i've read n hafal all the tips so ape lg mau risau? cehh poyo je, skali dah masuk bilik exam after prepare all my things (pen, pencil and etc) selak paper 'labelkan jenis-jenis suntingan photoshop pada rajah 2' shitttttt.... ape bendaa aku nk jwb niee... start situ dah start tension da 'ishh soalan ape ni' i look around my friends also kerut dahi when answer the paper, haha.. i leave all the merepek2 punya soalan lantak lahh, fed up aku.. harap lulus je.. huh..

have you ever met a girl that you thought was perfect?

Vanity Mansion, around 2 am i heard this one girl drop 'i like that - Anger Dimas Remix' my fav track then i quickly jump into the dance floor i told rain to 'weh ko peggang camera aku jap!' he replied 'tangkap gamba aku dgn aisha jap' and i said 'jap weh lagu ni dowhh' the he buat muka. I quickly to the dance floor and wait until the song 'koyak' then bang my head like shitt.. i take about 2 3 shot when the crowd happening after that i go to the DJ console n try to snap the Dj who spin my fav song.. first shot, over expose.. second shot, juz niceee but then i was freeze 'damn cute dis lil girl!' after that i stand very near the Dj console and my eye keep looking at her, the way she excited, so childish, comel gilaaa... 5am at home finally after having nasi lemak BRJ.. lay down on my katil dgn laptop sebelah uploading all the picture, when i woke up at the morning someone PM me and guess who :)

Maturity

After what happen 'Dua Dunia Berbeza' at last seperate by our own way. Mengikut kefahaman saya sifat kematangan ialah seseorang individu itu dapat membezakan baik dan buruk sesuatu perkara, dapat membezakan perkara baik dan buruk sudah dikira matang tapi ape jadi kalau seseorang tu masih tidak sedar perbuatan ddie yang terang-terang salah? Lepas tu boleh pulak nak sound2 orang 'TAK MATANG' fuck off wehh. Jangan ko fikir ko tu paling MATURE among the other, sedar sikit diri tu sape. Dah la riak, sombong, bongkak, plus tak sedar-sedar lagi even dah explain banyak kali. Thanks to a few person who listen to my heart, beberapa kawan saya yang saya sangatt lah berterima kasih sbab korg ade time aku susah. Nasib baik la ade orang yang sudi teman, mendengar, and give some advice to me. Sape makan cili die rase pedas, so faham2 lah pada siapa perkara ini ditujukan. Sedarlah diri tu sikit, haihh.. Kau jangan fikir ko punya kepale je orang laen punya kepale kau tak fikir.